I act really bad occasionally. For instance, when a colleague stares to the MSN and chats all day long, I lose my temper. I am on the verge of shouting and criticizing people crossly. I grow pompous, arrogant and obnoxious, thinking I am fully justified to boss the subordinates around. It is time for me to pause and reflect: I am not superior to anybody as I am only a tiny part of the team. Workers at every corner of the world idle away time.  When will I quit feeling guilty?

There must be a touch of rashness in my way of handling jobs. I intended to accomplish the work effciently, however, it turned out to be errors slipping the eyes. "Slow down, be patient." My brother-in-law, who married my sister a short while ago, saw through me when he watched me practising calligraphy with a brush pen.

The thought of causing inconvenience to others because of my immature of business syle is gnawing my conscience. Will I turn composed and can be counted on one day?

I know this is risky and improper but I can't hold it anymore. I must see him tomorrow without any delay. It won't be too difficult to make up an excuse to get rid of him if he looks roguish!